A Last Note!! 23rd June 2007 saturday

23rd June 2007 A last note.

The time is 12.32pm . It has been so long that I am waiting for her phone call or may be an sms.. She has not responded to me not even an sms. I sms her many times on her mother’s cell even I called but there is no respond. She always does what she wants.Whenever she want to talk she can but what about me I need to speak to her very urgently but she had left no way for me to contact her.She has changed her mobile number for me so that I cant reach her. People says that in this relationship I have lost everything..may be but one is for sure that I got to know the real meaning of love.It is true that true love kills but this is the life in love.I don’t know how many days more but the only thing I have realized that from when she had left me alone I am slowly loosing myself in the hands of what they call end of life. I tried enough to live my life as normal but I at this point can say only and feel one thing that I cannot live without her and this the truth of my life. A little time more and when all the hopes will be lost that will be the last moments of my life. I am dying this time and feeling very bad n sad for the reason that I had happen to me....I am sorry, Sorry to everyone who is dear to me that I am leaving this miserable life..Better to die once rather dying again and again for her.. I really gave her my heart so honestly.But see what has she done with this heart. Some one says “I have to die whether with her or without her” .Hope to live some days more and my hopes atleast will nt leave me.She said it that I am a hopeless case..whenever i remeber these lines or read out this sms it really makes my heart cold.....thank you sakshi for telling me the real meaning of love.

24TH JUNE 2007 SUNDAY..

YESTERDAY WAS SATURDAY AND I CAME TO KNOW SOMETHING ABOUT YOU...

I DONT KNOW WHAT SHOULD I DO. I HAVE THIS ONLY THING TO TELL YOU THAT
TILL NOW I AM WAITING FOR YOU TO CAL ME.. THIS IS DONE VERY BADLY BY
THAT YOU HAVE BLOCKED ALL THE WAYS FOR ME TO CONTACT YOU. THIS IS REALLY
VERY BAD.AND I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU FOR THIS THING YOU DID WHAT U WANT
ALWAYS WITHOUT THINKING WHAT WIL  HAPPEN TO SAHIL, AND SAYS U CARE FOR
SAHIL IS IT GUD YOU TELL ME?

MAY BE I HAVE TO TELL YOU SOMETHING IMPORTANT YES IT IS SOMETHING IMPORTANT ABOUT MY
LIFE AND I KNOW U NOW DID NOT CARE FOR SO CALLED LIFE OF YOUR
LOVER.... I DO LOVE YOU STILL BUT NOW FEELING VERY BAD DUE TO YOUR
DOINGS. KEEP TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT ME IT WAS VERY PAINFUL WHEN I HEARD IT
BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL THAT YOU CAN DO ANYTHING FOR YOURSELF.

YOU ALWAYS TOLD ME THAT I AM SELFISH FOR MYSELF NOW U TELL ME WHO IS
SELFISH....

WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU.LIFE IS TOO LONG ESPACIALLY YOURS COS U R GOING
TO LIVE MY LIFE ALSO.
THANKS A LOT.
U R VERY BAD.
SELFISH TOO.
WAITING FOR YOUR RESPONSE.